Drive in the dark..

My mind was full of cobwebs.. Sunday evening, sometimes are the most low periods of the week..bluer than monday mornings. Kids were stretched in front of the television and didnt look like they wanted to budge.. Frankly i needed some time on my own without thinking of them..

So I got into my jeans, pulled on a t shirt and pullover and picked up the car keys.. I'm going out for a drive i announced, 'hmms' from the living room. Strange, I expected some kind of protest!! I let myself out and into the car and hit the road in 5 minutes. I had no idea where I was going, decided it was definately Mohd rafi I needed, those old, familiar, soothing lyrics, and rafis melodious voice soon filled the car.. I drove on..

I headed instinctively out of the city and drove on over the hills housing the city suberbs, then decided to drive completely out of the city limits.. into the darkness with the car lights only illuminating a few feet ahead of me, vast stretches of darkness lay on both sides of the street. My heart raced and pulses quickened, my mouth went a little dry.. I drove on. The road went up and down and curved sharply here and there... i could see the city lights receeding quickly behind me in the rear view mirror!! Somehow it felt a bit like dying, leaving life behind. In a few minutes my heart rate slowed close to normal, and I actually began to relax; the darkness a smooth comforting velvet around me.. I drove on now full speed over the hills and around the bends.. Truly emancipated and free..

Pleasantly turned back home and arrived back somehow a little bit of a new person. I decided that if I did something to enhance my life living experiences, and didnt hit/hurt anyone on the way and came back to a home and kids that didnt really miss me while I was gone for a bit!! whats the harm!!

Cobwebs cleared, i guess!!!