Just a few days back p my 14 year old boy and me shared some fun after listening to the voice of my father in law's recorded message on our phone.. Clearly he was not used to doing this and it took him a couple of seconds to realise he was recording..
This is how the recoding goes.. "Hello, our telephone number is ......... . Ask S (his son) to call back (my MIL prompts..'to Wilson Garden')to Wilson Garden. With the kids!. OK Bye. To his wife..'leave a message anthe' (meaning in Kannadda..it says leave a message)..
We still have his voice on the phone but he is no more. Passed away after a couple of days in the hospital after two massive heart attacks and angioplasty. And we are left here with his voice on our phone.. somehow it does not seem as amusing any more.
We were unable to grieve at the news, I don't know why. No one shed a single tear. After the anxious hours spent in making travel arrangements and calls to the airlines and trips to the airport, the kids and I just rolled back to our routines. For me there is this dull ache constantly pulling at the heart and the mind is distracted with flashes of memories that come unbidden. But I am not able to grieve completely. I found myself calling my athai (aunt) and amma (mother) and chatting with them 2 times in the last week.
Don't want to be left with nothing, not even a voice to hold on to!!!
3 comments:
"Sorrow you can hold, however desolating, if nobody speaks to you. If they speak, you break down." -Bede Jarrett
At times of grief, despair or
even confusion ...... talking with your dear ones is the best thing to do ...... they are "with" you, regardless of where they are .......and will always be. You will never be left without a voice to hold on to.
"There are things that we don't want to happen but have to accept, things we don't want to know but have to learn, and people we can't live without but have to let go." - Author Unknown
Hi Anon..
Here we go again with the 'quotes'!
Yes, I know talking helps and I have been doing a lot of that in the past few days. Liked the last quote.. We plan our lives so carefully, but in the end a lot of things have to be just accepted..
Man proposes, God disposes.. Another quote!!
Dont worry about coping we shall be fine, dont depend on all meds, talk to your doc. We will be very happy to hear from good friends for talking to good friends helps. Believe in your heart and enjoy your life.
Puja Sadani.
Los Angeles, CA
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